Well, my Lite n Easy order has arrived, and I’ve started. Here’s some initial thoughts I had while I was opening the box and unpacking it:
Wow, that’s a lot of food
Wow, that’s a lot of packaging
Shit, those portion sizes are tiny. I’m going to be starving, this isn’t going to work
Wow, there’s so many snacks. I don’t even know if I’ll eat them all
Wooooaaaah so much of this needs to go in the freezer. Quick, empty the freezer!
I’m going to need to find extra time in my morning to cook and eat breakfast at home
Wow this is a lot of food
These portion sizes are tiny. I’m going to be so hungry. No wait, the snacks….
This is confusing. How do I know what I’m eating each meal?! How do I figure out which food to take to work?!
So there you go. Many conflicting, confusing thoughts as I unboxed the box.
Breakfast this morning was a two egg omelette with some roast veggies and cheese, and a piece of toast. There were very, very minimal veggies, but actually when I cooked it out they were a good amount. There was also very, very little cheese – but when I ate it, the flavour actually balanced well. Which probably goes to illustrate exactly why I’m needing a weight loss intervention like Lite n Easy – I eat too much cheese, and too much butter, and too much cream… on everything. It’s definitely a hangover from my LCHF/keto days, when it was perfectly ok to eat the delicious fatty food, but now that there are carbs in my life again it is decidedly not ok.
For the rest of today I’ve got grapes (morning tea which is probably going to end up being arvo tea), some kind of pork and slaw deal for lunch, a fruit cup, and corn chips and salsa. I do have a dinner there, but we’re out at my families tonight for a weekly meal. I knew going into this that Thursday nights wouldn’t work for the LnE meals, but that’s ok – we eat healthily there, and I’ll just watch my portion size. And say no to the wine.
I feel guilty, and I feel stupid, because I enjoy cooking. I know how to meal plan, I know how to meal prep. I shouldn’t need to buy pre-prepared meals that are over-priced and under-seasoned. But I do need them, it turns out.
My self control is limited. Very limited. My inner monologue argues with itself, so half of my says No to the chocolate while the other half yells YES!!!! My thinking is that by getting every single gram of food that I can consume in a day sent to me in a neat little plastic-wrapped bundle, it’s easy to say ‘no, that didn’t come in the Lite n Easy box, you can’t eat it’. That’s the theory, anyway.
So I’ve gone with LnE’s ‘Jump Start’ pack, which effectively means I’ll do 5:2 for two weeks, then switch back to their normal plan. I guess if I like the 5:2 I’ll stick with it. On the fasting days you don’t get sent breakfast or morning tea, but get lunch, arvo tea and dinner.
So look, that’s that. My first order will arrive next Wednesday (because I accidentally ordered two Hello Fresh boxes this week, so we have a LOT of food in the house and it was irresponsible to bring more in). So what I should be doing is making small, healthy changes to my diet in the mean time. Ha. Not happening. Well not yet, at least. I’ll try.
It’s January 1, and yes that’s no reason to get started, but it’s what I’m doing. Let’s face it – any day is a good day to start.
It’s been two years since I had my daughter, and not only did I never lose the baby weight, I gained an enormous amount. Postpartum depression and the medication that goes with that certainly don’t help, and in fact are probably a contributing factor in it all, but my lifestyle is terrible. I’ve dug myself into a hole that is incredibly hard to see a way out of.
I had huge success with LCHF before I got pregnant – I lost 13 kg. Then the first trimester kicked in and wheat was the only thing that was stopping the morning sickness, so I ate cheese and bacon rolls every morning, followed by egg and bacon mcmuffins in the second trimester. In the third I was diagnosed with fasting bloods-related gestational diabetes (so not related to diet), I switched to LCHF and completely controlled by blood sugars that way, and I stopped gaining weight for the remainder of the pregnancy.
Anyway, here I am two years on, 20kg+ heavier than I was when I got pregnant, and feeling like crap. I decided to come back to this blog while I was sitting on a park bench watching my partner run around a playground with the toddler, and I had absolutely no energy or physical motivation to join them. My knees hurt, I’m getting sick more often (thanks daycare bugs), I’m bloated, my mental health isn’t great, I’ve gone up several clothes sizes, my gut is getting bigger and is full of visceral fat. The hole I’m in is getting bigger, and even harder to get out of, and so I guess that’s the motivation. Get out of the hole before the hole gets so big that I’m stuck forever. Not that I know a way out right now.
I’ve tried LCHF since my daughter was born – for about a month – with no success. The previous time I ate that way a month would have seen me dropping the kgs quickly, but this time, nothing. So even though it’s the only direction to go, to cut the carbs, I’m hesitant. It’s a lot of effort for maybe no results. Do I start with an egg fast? What if that does nothing? How do I cook for/eat with the rest of the house if I’m just eating eggs? How long can I actually keep that up for? Lots of questions. No answers. But I’m figuring I’ll write bits and pieces down here and see where I land anyway.
The salsa and avocado dip isn’t 100% compliant – I’m struggling with a good salsa alternative though. It comes in at 3.9 g of sugar per 100g though, approximately 2.9 g per serve, so it’s ok. The avocado dip isn’t ideal – but neither is the price of avocados!!! And once again, I’m not eating much of it.
When I write down what I get to eat on this way of eating, I realise how damn lucky I am. My body loves this food source and this fuel, and when I stick to it and nourish myself I absolutely see the results. Over Easter I ate a bunch of things I shouldn’t have, most of which weren’t chocolate, and when I reflect I wonder why. Self sabotage is a continual cycle for me, but it’s a cycle that’s slowing down. Two days fully compliant and I’m on track for a third, with lunch and snacks all lined up for the rest of today, so I look forward to reporting on a fully compliant day 3 tomorrow 🙂
Wow, it’s been a LONG time since I posted here!!! The main reason? I found a way of eating that worked for me, every day, with success, that didn’t require me to put so much thought into it that I needed to blog about it. LCHF – Low Carb, Healthy Fat – is how I’ve been eating since August 4th of last year (2016) and it’s WORKING. I’ll write more detail about it at another time, but in the mean time here’s the thing. I’m getting married in 25 days, and I’ve fallen off the bandwagon a little bit recently with my eating. I’m certainly not ‘shredding for the wedding’, and my dress has been made to fit me like a glove so I’m not panicked, but I’d also like to give it my best shot at looking good on the day. So I’m going to use this blog as a food diary to keep myself accountable, and to stick to ‘green list’ foods only for the next three and a half weeks. It’s not hard, I’ve done it before – I just need to make sure I’m a bit more mindful about my eating. I’m not fussed with quantities, but more the types and qualities of the foods I’m consuming.
So, on Saturday I did my first every hour-long personal training session (they’re normally half an hour). I also learned an important lesson. While coffee is the perfect fuel/stomach liner for a half hour session, I need more than that for an hour. Perhaps some food. At the 40 minute mark I was feeling good, and if we’d called it a day at 45 minutes or even 50 I might have walked away feeling like I had a top session. Those last 10 minutes though? They got hard. At one point I wasn’t quite sure if I was going to vomit or faint, and the frustrating thing was that I knew that it was likely just a result of not eating anything before I came to the gym. Grr!!! Anyway, it was a good one:
10 x safety squats (45 kg, 55 kg x 3) – NB: still not sure what the weight of this bar is. I know I had 20 kg added for the first set, and 30 kg added for the rest.
10 x clean and press (20 kg, 25 kg x 3) – super happy with these. I managed to do 7 reps in each set without bouncing to get the press up – I did strict presses
20 x walking lunges, with wall ball carried above head (no weight, 2 kg x 3)
10 x raised push-ups
20 x raised heel (hack) squats, 2 second lower and 2 second raise (final set was normal lower and raise)
I think this was possibly the latest in the evening I’ve worked out before (6:30 pm) and that combined with having moved house across the weekend made for interesting energy levels. Still, a good workout!
10 x Kettlebell clean and press each arm (8 kg, 10 kg, 10 kg)
20 x wall ball slams (20 pound ball, so that’s… 9.07 kg)
This arm day was challenging, both physically and mentally. Mostly mentally. My PT got me doing some new arm-based exercises that, while I’ve done similar moves before, really pushed my comfort zone in terms of seeing what my dodgy shoulders are capable of. The only reason I completed the movements and allocated sets and reps is because I completely trust my PT in terms of what he knows my body is capable of and when it’s ready to have its limits pushed, and because I completely trust his spotting.
He got me doing bench pressing today, which I’ve definitely done before, but today we really worked on technique. Turns out I’ve been starting with my arms angled back (towards my face) and bringing the weights down on an angle (towards my face), so moving the weight towards my hips more was a big adjustment. He also reduced the weight I used for my second set of reps on the dumbbell bench press, so that I could work on the technique.
The horizontal flies were a super new thing for me, and very scary from a mental perspective. PT originally handed me 4 kg weights but we dropped them back to 3 kg – if I’d been doing less reps 4 kg might have been a go-er, but not doing 24 in a row! Ultimately I needed the 3 kg to push through my sticking point at the bottom of the movement, but could have gone up a few kg for the rest of the movement.